so far this summer has been..very quiet. this actually maks me happy, i love it. but still its hard knowing that my friends cannot hang with me. i mean look at me: im an adult with little to no life experience. i have never been out with a group of people before. i live on two different worlds, meaning two different cultures.
this world on the left is america, the world on the right is my ethnic heritage. i want to live in the american world, and forget about the ethic world. living on that planet is like living on welfare. i do nothing on that planet except read a book, do photography, and internet. my parents have rules set on this household, all part of my ethic origin. having origins is rewarding, really its cool knowing i got two different sides of me. but when the planet collides with america, its a huge calamity. these two worlds are on wits end, they cannot reconcile! everyone the same; all ethic people in this world are the same..no more no less they act a certain way, do certain things, and set rules for the household. i wish my origins was much more americanized..and we'll be united as one! one big huge world.. all according to plan..
but if that doesn't happen, and i permanately live on the american planet, how am i supposed to function knowing i'll be on my own? think about it: im still VERY young, thats a good thing. like most american teenagers, i have made horrible mistakes and learned from them. now that im officially an adult, the world belongs to me now! i CAN do whatever i please, i CAN start dating and not give a damn, i CAN do things...but i want someone to guide me and make sure im doing the RIGHT thing.
to ell you the truth, i've allways wondered what love is like. to be in love, love, love.. even though its stupid to be apart of it. everyone's dating left and right up and down, back an forth. it annoys me so,so,so much.
i guess the first step is learning how to drive.. yeah.. i should start with that :)
Dior & JPG
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damn, after writing all that, i now feel..weird. i think its time for me to go out on those really fucking deprssing walks again. i just gotta leave this house
:( then i'll study for that permit test. oh i hope i pass :(
edit: Model Tom Nicon Dies in Apparent Suicide
Men's Fashion Week in Milan is off to a somber start after top male model Tom Nicon, 22, was found dead in an apparent suicide.
The French model, who was one of the faces of Burberry and walked the runway for major designers such as YSL, Hugo Boss and Louis Vuitton, fell four floors from an apartment building in Milan, according to the Daily Mail.
The discovery of his body this weekend was mere hours before the fashion festivities kicked off. Nicon had even attended show rehearsal at Versace earlier in the day of his death.
"He was with us on Friday morning for a final fitting," said Donatella Versace. "He seemed fine and calm. He had already done three or four shows with us and he was a sweet boy. We just can't understand why he did what he did. We would never have thought he would do something like this. When we heard the news we were all so upset and we still are all so very sad."
Police investigating the case are treating it as a suicide and told the Daily Mail that his death might have been spurred by romantic troubles.:
"We have spoken to the friends he was staying with and they have told us that he had recently broken up with his girlfriend and was depressed."
Nicon's death is the latest in a string of apparent suicides and suicide attempts by models. Last month, French stunner Noemie Lenoir reportedly overdosed on a mix of drugs and alcohol in France, but was rushed to a hospital and saved. (Lenoir has since returned to work.)
A month before that, male model Ambrose Olsen died in what insiders are calling a suicide by hanging. Late last year top model Daul Kim also allegedly hanged herself in her Paris apartment, and in 2008 Ruslana Korshunova jumped several stories from her New York City balcony in what was determined a suicide.
Nicon's agency in Milan, D'Management, wrote the following on its Web site: "A Tribute to Tom Nicon: A friend to all of us. Always so special, always so brilliant and such a great model and human being."
A tribute during Men's Fashion Week in Milan is also planned.
And we'll never forget when news broke of Alexander McQueen's suicide on day one of last season's New York Fashion Week.
stylist.com
wow, just this morning i was thinbking about making this post to be models who are dead part 2! i just came home from my walk and now this? i've never heard of this man, but after looking through his photos, he's sexy and adorable :( wow, this year is pretty much not a great year, and i've just realized, mich jackson's deathday is comming up to :(
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