kim kardashian wedding

Thursday, September 9, 2010

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wow. i never knew it was going to be like this. i'm already sick and tired of going to school, knowing that knowone will care about me and that im not having any fun. senior year is such a joke to me. i'm in classes that i dont need and i need classes that i dont have. i havent even spoken to anyone else, just brief questions about how many students are in a class and random stuff. i dont feel normal here at all. i can't wait to leave this depressing place. i haven't eaten in days, i don't talk to my parents anymore, and im ignoring my sister. they just don't understand. tranfering schools is not a game. im not playing games here. im just here to sign things and leave within a few days. now they're tellin me i got the whole transferals thing all wrong. i was suppossed to go to the other school long time ago and negotiate school choice with them, not here. soo i wasted three weeks of nothing.

i, actually was doing the right thing. i did try to call schools, but my mother said that i shouldn't do that. but, in retrospect, this is absolutely true, just more complex. instead of just calling the school, we shouldve visited the school aswell. soo im gonna do that next week. damn, my dad didnt even show up, and i have the college classes here to show him and sign up. the classes start the week after the 13th and end in novemer 11th :)

at the same time, i shouldn't cry about this. this comes to show you that i wasn't stupid. i actually was smart about these things, my parents did it wrong and decided to listen to my therapist instead of me. however,this does give me hope. but at the same time i can't stand going to school tommorrow. i'll just stay home and call in sick.

i feel like dying

Liu Xu at Marilyn NY