kim kardashian wedding

Thursday, December 9, 2010

hungry, heavy, very unhappy.where did i go horribly wrong last week, where? is there a way i can ifx it so i can end my sadness? is there a way i can heal myself and start something else? can i make new firends? where? how, and why did i do the things i did. i guess december was such a surprise to me. first week in and its already shocking in a very bad way.

but im sticking to muh plan, staying by myself, and not talking to alot of people. at least i dont hug the boy i like, yes, this all revolve that one :(

remember waay back i said something bad's going to happen with this? well, it did(not really, but.....) why is lust such a disease to me? all i want is a friend for now, but it seems they don't wanna be my friend at all. i can't believe it happened so fast. just like that: a month later, bullshit happens. not to him, but to me.

is there a way i can talk to him properly? maybe this'll be resolved next week, or worse tommorrow. i just want it to be over before my life ends it.

lust is definately my deadly sin, and im not even a christian.

edit: home. hate this day. i dressed like a dude today for once, pulled it off great and i recieved many compliments esp on my rainbow belt. some people did laugh though, kinda hurts. my mother was not amused.

me on monday:

i just can't wait for tommorrow. hopefully i can buy a new hair colour, i really wanna be a little bit lighter.

ok its official, im in love with this russian band :)

seriously though. listen to their songs, i promise you, you will fall in love with this band, who cares if their songs aren't in english? just go here: http://www.ilike.com/artist/Bi-2/songs

speaking of ruskies: