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I'm scared of failure. I want to go to college soo badly, but I'm afraid I probably won't make it. I feel as if everything I did was wrong, everything got all messed up, I wish I started this year happier and care - free. But my behavior kindoff got the best of me. I pretty much frustrated with my life. But within two weeks it would be worth finishing. Since I'll be in a new city, I'm afraid I'll start over very badly. What friends will I have, will they influence me for better or worst, will they guide me throughout the next four years academia. I'm at lost of words.