kim kardashian wedding

my plans have changed. i didnt take the sats tommorrow, oh well, next year is going to be interesting man.
this months surprises me more and more each week. tommorrow's going to be extra special. going to hangout with someone. oh my god, the people i'm friends with i love them to death :)
which reminds me: my christmas list looks a lil like this:
a new ipod
80-100mm lens
i dont need new clothing for x-mas, thankyou.
e-ciggarettes
forgiveness from the people i once cared about
a kiss? hahahahahaha jk.
diet supplements
shoes(?)


and my new years resolutions!
- look back at my past and see what went wrong. try and communicate with the people who were once in your life.
- make amends to the situations i've cause or been involved in.
- look in the mirror, are you really who you think you are?
-change. i'm not a girl anymore.
-make sure i take my meds everyday and NOT forget.
- become a smooker. its been my dream since i was 15 years old.
- come up with reasons why i dont wanna be completely pure.
-dont go to graduation. its going to be hot and fucking boring to be in
-pray that i graduate.
-get a car.
- go to umass and recieve housing.
- live in a two bedroom apt. overlooking the lake,w/e.
- hangout with people!
-come outta the closet to my father again, because he doesn't completely know im bisexual
- start wearing mens clothing on mondays.
- wear makeup a bit more?
- get a haircut.
- become a badass! hahah no.
- do more photography!
- start leaving school more.
- dance!
- make music with my guitar, write more songs!(i suck at guitar btw)
have sex with as many girls as i please. hhahha JUST KIDDING AGAIN!
draw more.
pray that the person that'll be my roomate will become my girlfriend..hahahha image that :D..
throw a party for my 19th bday. boomvchakachaka!
start brinig my camera everywhere i go outside of school so i can record fights.ooohh yeahh :DDDDDDD

i'll post fashion pictures waaay later its waayy to fucking early its not even noontime!

i feel like im losing hope for myself and everything else..i've embarassed myself infront of everyone today. im going to make sure that shit doesn't happen monday. i'll be depraved, and by myself. but im 50% sure i wont be comming back to school for the next week.... i need to talk with my therapist about that. i wanna be on medical leave... soo much stuff going on at home and im sick and tired of bringing it up at school. i got another idea: i'll make a plan that'll not make me got to school for awhile. sounds scary, but worth a try.